So how it feels when you lose all? Family, love, your land, your throne, all.... When you are nothing, you have nothing and probably you'll die being totally alone... Newcrest seems dead to me. I hardly can imagine this city without Kasanovas. But maybe I am the only one who is dead? Sometimes I just stand on the street and I am there again where I was alive, loved and needed. The memories about Archer and his family are still alive in me.
Newcrest became my home long time ago. This planet, too. I never can return to Sixam where I was born, so I am forced to stay in Newcrest to the rest of my life. I even can't be in my natural form like before... Because they would kill me. Humans hate me, too. They think it's my fault that Kasanovas family disappeared. So... I can't be Nexir Laux longer. It's horrible... I even can't be alive, but I am...
Yes, honestly... I feel guilty for Archer and his family, I feel guilty for everything, because I was the one who invited sixamians to their home. And I am the only one who survived... So I will pay for it forever remembering them all and living totally alone in this world.
All could be different if not my stubbornness to contact with Sixam. My nation betrayed me and wanted to kill me putting me in the capsule, that's how I got in this planet Earth. That's how I've met Archer and his children. They saved me, they took me to their family and cared about me... I fell in love with Archer almost at once when I saw him. He was so sad and so unhappy, tried to reject me because he was so afraid of love. And every time when I remember it I smile. I like to dream of Archer. I am still with him. But all this are just my memories... When I return to reality my loneliness always hurts me. And then I just lie down, stare at the ceiling and won't do nothing. If not my silly wish to return to Sixam... I would be together with Archer now.
I could stay in bed for ever and do nothing. My life stopped when the Kasanovas family disappeared.
But still... I have to continue my miserable life. If even I don't want it. So I force myself to wear my disguise and go to meet the world pretending that I am happy.
My name is Lucien Garcia.
My name is Lucien Garcia.