It was a first time when I spent the night not at home. I and Joshua stayed in hotel in Windenburg. Saturday morning we quickly had our breakfast, jumped into a small boat and went to the Bluffs island.
"So what about did you want to talk?" Joshua asked me.
"Well... I had to do that long time ago... But... I just didn't dare..."
"Why?"
"You see, it's not so easy... I am... I am not from here, Joshua."
"So what about did you want to talk?" Joshua asked me.
"Well... I had to do that long time ago... But... I just didn't dare..."
"Why?"
"You see, it's not so easy... I am... I am not from here, Joshua."
Joshua chuckled.
"I know that you're not from Windenburg, that's OK!"
"No..." I laughed shaking my head. "I mean... I'm not from this planet... I'm from Sixam."
"Sixam... What is Sixam?"
"Sixam is a planet, I was born there..."
"Are you trying to say me... You are alien?" Joshua looked at me as if I was crazy.
"Yes! Bingo! You won a prize!" I said with playfully voice.
"I know that you're not from Windenburg, that's OK!"
"No..." I laughed shaking my head. "I mean... I'm not from this planet... I'm from Sixam."
"Sixam... What is Sixam?"
"Sixam is a planet, I was born there..."
"Are you trying to say me... You are alien?" Joshua looked at me as if I was crazy.
"Yes! Bingo! You won a prize!" I said with playfully voice.
OK... Then I am from Mars..." Joshua grinned.
"Ah... Martian..." I smiled. "They are our enemies, but I don't care... As you are such handsome and shmexy Martian..."
"Come on, Lucien... And that's all you wanted to tell me? Whether... You are just playing with me?" He raised his eyebrow.
"It seems you won't believe in me..." I nodded smiling. "OK... Then I'll show you..."
"Ah... Martian..." I smiled. "They are our enemies, but I don't care... As you are such handsome and shmexy Martian..."
"Come on, Lucien... And that's all you wanted to tell me? Whether... You are just playing with me?" He raised his eyebrow.
"It seems you won't believe in me..." I nodded smiling. "OK... Then I'll show you..."
I knew that Joshua can't stand energy when I connect to him, but I didn't have another choice. And I really understood him. If I would be him probably I wouldn't want to be believe, too. It's the human mind and it works completely different than Sixamians. So I had to do that. I concentrated all my energy and merged to Joshua showing him who I am and some memories about my past. He had to know that.
"Oh my..." Joshua whispered. "Is it all a truth?"
"Yes..." I nodded.
"Sorry, baby... I'm really sorry... Now I'm really feeling ashamed for saying you such bullshit..."
"Forget it..." I waved with my hand aside. "You didn't know and I had to show you or tell you about myself long time ago."
"Yes..." I nodded.
"Sorry, baby... I'm really sorry... Now I'm really feeling ashamed for saying you such bullshit..."
"Forget it..." I waved with my hand aside. "You didn't know and I had to show you or tell you about myself long time ago."
"So... You can't return home?" He asked taking me by hand.
"No... But my home is here... Long time ago." I said.
"Oh... And your ex...?"
"I know nothing... Archer and his family disappeared..."
"Sorry, Lucien... You've lost too much... I still have my parents and I could visit them any time I want, but... I visit only my mother. I and father don't talk already about five years."
"Are you mad at him?"
"It's not like I am mad at him, it's just... I don't know how to explain..." Joshua shrugged. "He never loved me, so we lived like two strangers, but not like a father and son. And he hurt my mother. Humiliated her, beat her and kept drinking... But one day when I returned home and found my mother crying, because he beat her again my patience was over. I found my father and trashed him in literally meaning of this word. Since then we're not talking. He hates me, but he's afraid of me, so he stopped to beat my mother. Finally... If he would dare to do that again I would kill him, he knows that..."
I sighed and hugged him tightly.
"It's really sad... I'm very sorry..."
"So it was a beginning of all... Firstly I worked as the drugs dealer... Until I and my friend in university got in very serious troubles. I betrayed him and avoided the big troubles as a jail, he was tried... Luckily, he had a good lawyer, so after the half year he was released from the prison... I feel like a shit for that..."
"What has happened?" I asked silently caressing Joshua's back.
"A girl died... She was our friend. She wanted to try and bought a dose from us. We all had a party together. We explained her how to use it, but it seems she got us wrong and overdosed. We found her dead in bathroom in the morning. Then police came and bla bla bla... They started questioning us..." Joshua swallowed hard. "I was scared to death... Knowing that if I'll get in a prison for the drugs I'll not be able to help my mother I tried to do everything to get out dry from the swamp. So I said that Jonathan sold the drugs to that girl... It was a true, but we sold the drugs together, it was our business and I knew that she'll buy the dose from him... I had to accept my blame, but I didn't... But Jonathan accepted the blame and was prosecuted, when I was just removed from the university and sentenced to pay to the girl's parents for that they lost their daughter ..."
"Aye..." I mumbled remembering what Dexter told me before.
So it was a true... Of course, I knew that Dexter didn't lie to me, but I had completely forgotten about it. And now I heard the truth from the Joshua's lips.
"After it I started to play in casino. I liked it as I was lucky in the beginning. I even didn't notice how I've got addicted and started to live in casino... I learned to cheat, to grasp my opponents and I was really lucky in that until one night I jumped on very serious guys and lost everything in one hour... And then a new story begun... If not you I would be already dead I guess..." Joshua sighed.
I pulled away a bit.
"I'm happy you are alive, Joshua..." I said looking at his eyes. "And now? Are you... still playing?"
Joshua shook his head.
"No. I promised you and myself to be better person than I was before. I started to attend the psychotherapy."
"Really? It's great, Josh!" I rejoiced.
"Yeah... I just had to tell you everything in the beginning... But I couldn't..."
"Why?"
"I... I wanted to use you as you're rich... I did it many times..." Joshua looked down. "I was just... very unhappy, angry and upset inside. Avani was like me... I used her and she used me. But I understand it only now. You've changed me, Lucien..." He looked at me. "You are very different than others... I couldn't do anything, I fell in love with you. Maybe because you are from Sixam?" He smirked.
"If only it makes me special..." I smiled.
"You are special, because it's just you..." Joshua touched my cheek and caressed it. "I don't care if you are alien or you are robot..."
"Thanks..." I whispered staring at his eyes.
Suddenly Joshua's phone started ring.
"Hello..." Joshua answered.
I watched how his face suddenly changed. Joshua seemed very worried.
"Oh... OK... I'll be in hospital after one hour, OK?" He said and hid his phone in the pocket.
"I have to go to Willow Creek, baby..." Joshua turned to me. "Avani is in hospital, she gives birth..."
"Wow!" I chuckled. "Congrats!" I patted Joshua's shoulder.
"Wait a bit..." He smiled at me. "We will celebrate it tonight."
"Really? Will you come?"
"Yes... Stay here, in Windenburg..." Joshua winked at me. "I'll let you know when I'll come, OK?"
"OK..." I said smiling. "Now let's go back to our hotel..."
"Yes, baby..." Joshua nodded and we went towards our boat.
"No... But my home is here... Long time ago." I said.
"Oh... And your ex...?"
"I know nothing... Archer and his family disappeared..."
"Sorry, Lucien... You've lost too much... I still have my parents and I could visit them any time I want, but... I visit only my mother. I and father don't talk already about five years."
"Are you mad at him?"
"It's not like I am mad at him, it's just... I don't know how to explain..." Joshua shrugged. "He never loved me, so we lived like two strangers, but not like a father and son. And he hurt my mother. Humiliated her, beat her and kept drinking... But one day when I returned home and found my mother crying, because he beat her again my patience was over. I found my father and trashed him in literally meaning of this word. Since then we're not talking. He hates me, but he's afraid of me, so he stopped to beat my mother. Finally... If he would dare to do that again I would kill him, he knows that..."
I sighed and hugged him tightly.
"It's really sad... I'm very sorry..."
"So it was a beginning of all... Firstly I worked as the drugs dealer... Until I and my friend in university got in very serious troubles. I betrayed him and avoided the big troubles as a jail, he was tried... Luckily, he had a good lawyer, so after the half year he was released from the prison... I feel like a shit for that..."
"What has happened?" I asked silently caressing Joshua's back.
"A girl died... She was our friend. She wanted to try and bought a dose from us. We all had a party together. We explained her how to use it, but it seems she got us wrong and overdosed. We found her dead in bathroom in the morning. Then police came and bla bla bla... They started questioning us..." Joshua swallowed hard. "I was scared to death... Knowing that if I'll get in a prison for the drugs I'll not be able to help my mother I tried to do everything to get out dry from the swamp. So I said that Jonathan sold the drugs to that girl... It was a true, but we sold the drugs together, it was our business and I knew that she'll buy the dose from him... I had to accept my blame, but I didn't... But Jonathan accepted the blame and was prosecuted, when I was just removed from the university and sentenced to pay to the girl's parents for that they lost their daughter ..."
"Aye..." I mumbled remembering what Dexter told me before.
So it was a true... Of course, I knew that Dexter didn't lie to me, but I had completely forgotten about it. And now I heard the truth from the Joshua's lips.
"After it I started to play in casino. I liked it as I was lucky in the beginning. I even didn't notice how I've got addicted and started to live in casino... I learned to cheat, to grasp my opponents and I was really lucky in that until one night I jumped on very serious guys and lost everything in one hour... And then a new story begun... If not you I would be already dead I guess..." Joshua sighed.
I pulled away a bit.
"I'm happy you are alive, Joshua..." I said looking at his eyes. "And now? Are you... still playing?"
Joshua shook his head.
"No. I promised you and myself to be better person than I was before. I started to attend the psychotherapy."
"Really? It's great, Josh!" I rejoiced.
"Yeah... I just had to tell you everything in the beginning... But I couldn't..."
"Why?"
"I... I wanted to use you as you're rich... I did it many times..." Joshua looked down. "I was just... very unhappy, angry and upset inside. Avani was like me... I used her and she used me. But I understand it only now. You've changed me, Lucien..." He looked at me. "You are very different than others... I couldn't do anything, I fell in love with you. Maybe because you are from Sixam?" He smirked.
"If only it makes me special..." I smiled.
"You are special, because it's just you..." Joshua touched my cheek and caressed it. "I don't care if you are alien or you are robot..."
"Thanks..." I whispered staring at his eyes.
Suddenly Joshua's phone started ring.
"Hello..." Joshua answered.
I watched how his face suddenly changed. Joshua seemed very worried.
"Oh... OK... I'll be in hospital after one hour, OK?" He said and hid his phone in the pocket.
"I have to go to Willow Creek, baby..." Joshua turned to me. "Avani is in hospital, she gives birth..."
"Wow!" I chuckled. "Congrats!" I patted Joshua's shoulder.
"Wait a bit..." He smiled at me. "We will celebrate it tonight."
"Really? Will you come?"
"Yes... Stay here, in Windenburg..." Joshua winked at me. "I'll let you know when I'll come, OK?"
"OK..." I said smiling. "Now let's go back to our hotel..."
"Yes, baby..." Joshua nodded and we went towards our boat.