"Here?" I asked Joshua when we arrived to the party's place.
"Yes..." He nodded. "Welcome to Ancient Ruins, baby!"
"Yes..." He nodded. "Welcome to Ancient Ruins, baby!"
"Wow!" I looked around. "It's a very magic place!"
"Yes... I agree... And parties are also magic here..." Joshua smiled. "So are you ready?"
"Of course! Let's go to dance!"
"Yes... I agree... And parties are also magic here..." Joshua smiled. "So are you ready?"
"Of course! Let's go to dance!"
"I'd like to tell you something..." Suddenly I said and only then I thought if I am really ready to talk about it now, but it was already too late.
"Yes?' Joshua looked at me. "What would you like to tell me, baby?"
"Yes?' Joshua looked at me. "What would you like to tell me, baby?"
"Well..." I started slowly and carefully choosing the words. "As we decided to be honest with each other..." I looked at his eyes. "I want to confess something..."
Joshua looked at my eyes back questioning.
"I and Dexter... We were together..." I swallowed hardly. "You know what I mean..."
Joshua stared at me for a while, the smile on his face melted like a snow. I understood that I hurt him.
"How did you can... I thought you want to be with me!" He exclaimed.
"I want! It was just a mistake, Joshua!" I said almost begging and already regretted my decision to tell him the truth.
Joshua looked at my eyes back questioning.
"I and Dexter... We were together..." I swallowed hardly. "You know what I mean..."
Joshua stared at me for a while, the smile on his face melted like a snow. I understood that I hurt him.
"How did you can... I thought you want to be with me!" He exclaimed.
"I want! It was just a mistake, Joshua!" I said almost begging and already regretted my decision to tell him the truth.
"When... it has happened?" He asked me.
"When we decided to live separate and make a break in our relationship..." I answered.
Joshua sighed.
"How many times... did you sleep with him?"
"When we decided to live separate and make a break in our relationship..." I answered.
Joshua sighed.
"How many times... did you sleep with him?"
"Josh!" I was irritated. "I understand you are jealous and hurt, but it's already too much!"
"OK... If it's too much then it's too much..." Joshua mumbled.
"I don't ask you such things about Avani or someone else, Josh!"
"Anyway... The fact is that you slept with him... And I believed that you gave us a chance, I really believed in that, Lucien!"
"Josh..."
He shook his head, turned away and went leaving me alone. I stood watching him and didn't know what to do. I couldn't lose him. No way! Especially now when all seemed so clear between us.
"I don't ask you such things about Avani or someone else, Josh!"
"Anyway... The fact is that you slept with him... And I believed that you gave us a chance, I really believed in that, Lucien!"
"Josh..."
He shook his head, turned away and went leaving me alone. I stood watching him and didn't know what to do. I couldn't lose him. No way! Especially now when all seemed so clear between us.
"Josh! Wait!" I came to him quickly and took him by his hand. "I love you... I really do! Don't take from me away one more chance to love and be loved, please!"
He stood with lowered head and listened to me. I turned him to myself and wrapped my arms around him. Joshua didn't reject me and embraced me back.
"Forgive me, please..." I said. "If I wanted to lie to you I'd never have told you the truth..."
"I know... I trust you, Lucien..." Joshua said.
"Thank you..."
"It just hurts... As I'm jealous..." Joshua caressed my back. "And now I understand how many times I hurt those who were with me and believed in me... I was such bastard!"
"It's a past, Josh..."
"Yes, but finally I learned something of it..."
"We all learn, baby..." I smiled. "Forgive me, please... I swear I'll never do that again."
"You are forgiven, because I couldn't stand without you for a minute!"
He stood with lowered head and listened to me. I turned him to myself and wrapped my arms around him. Joshua didn't reject me and embraced me back.
"Forgive me, please..." I said. "If I wanted to lie to you I'd never have told you the truth..."
"I know... I trust you, Lucien..." Joshua said.
"Thank you..."
"It just hurts... As I'm jealous..." Joshua caressed my back. "And now I understand how many times I hurt those who were with me and believed in me... I was such bastard!"
"It's a past, Josh..."
"Yes, but finally I learned something of it..."
"We all learn, baby..." I smiled. "Forgive me, please... I swear I'll never do that again."
"You are forgiven, because I couldn't stand without you for a minute!"
We kissed and smiled at each other.
"I'll go to the nearest shrub to water the grass..." Joshua winked at me. "When I'll return we will go to dance..."
"OK..." I smiled. "Just hurry back!"
"Sure! You are too handsome to leave you alone too long!" Joshua joked.
I chuckled watching him for a while till he disappeared behind the stony wall and went towards the bar to order the drinks for us.
"I'll go to the nearest shrub to water the grass..." Joshua winked at me. "When I'll return we will go to dance..."
"OK..." I smiled. "Just hurry back!"
"Sure! You are too handsome to leave you alone too long!" Joshua joked.
I chuckled watching him for a while till he disappeared behind the stony wall and went towards the bar to order the drinks for us.
I waited for Joshua already ten minutes, but he wasn't yet here. "Maybe he has met some friend..." I thought standing with two glasses in my hands and looking around. Then I smiled at myself thinking about how since tonight everything will be different... I felt so lucky that he forgave me. To lose him would be too hard. I needed him and I just wanted to be loved and happy. I wanted love myself. Now I didn't have any secrets and felt so free and happy inside. After all what I had to survive my fate decided that I deserved to be happy...
I looked at the stars in the sky and remembered Sixam. Would I like to return there? I didn't know... Or my mind didn't want to work. Suddenly I felt the weakness in my body. My head seemed me to heavy, my hands melted, I just wanted to sit down, somewhere, 'cause it seemed that I'll faint soon. I shook my head and looked around one more time trying to notice Joshua, but he wasn't still here. I put our drinks on the bar and went to sit on the bench. I was so tired or just sick... It seemed like my tiredness grows and becomes stronger with every minute.
"What's going with me?" I thought feeling how my eyes become heavy and body almost doesn't want to obey to me. I lay down on the bench and the world has disappeared.
I looked at the stars in the sky and remembered Sixam. Would I like to return there? I didn't know... Or my mind didn't want to work. Suddenly I felt the weakness in my body. My head seemed me to heavy, my hands melted, I just wanted to sit down, somewhere, 'cause it seemed that I'll faint soon. I shook my head and looked around one more time trying to notice Joshua, but he wasn't still here. I put our drinks on the bar and went to sit on the bench. I was so tired or just sick... It seemed like my tiredness grows and becomes stronger with every minute.
"What's going with me?" I thought feeling how my eyes become heavy and body almost doesn't want to obey to me. I lay down on the bench and the world has disappeared.