Day 11, Wednesday
Next morning as always I prepared breakfast.
Next morning as always I prepared breakfast.
I was thinking a lot about what happened during those 11 days in this house, and how it has changed me and it had some influence to me. In fact, it may seem for someone that nothing has happened, I just flirt with men and play my silly game "Who is the best?" But those who think so, are very wrong. First of all, it's not easy to come in person and tell him that he is not the one I choose. Being a very friendly and sociable, I very rarely say such things to someone, so it's not surprising when I have to say that these guys who live in this house, I feel bad, and then I feel very sad. For example, Randolph. He wanted to have more time, but I didn't give it him. Just because he's like my brother, but since the beginning, everything seemed to me otherwise. And here I realized how you can easily go wrong when you are guided by stereotypes. If the person you feel very close to, it doesn't mean that he is the one you are looking for. I sincerely love Randolph, I think I loved him immediately, as soon as I had the chance to talk more to him and to know him better. He is wonderful. Such people are few in this world as Randolph. I miss him, even though he left only yesterday.
I also felt bad when Hugo yelled at me. I don't think he's bad and I didn't want to offend him, but I still did and realized that I absolutely didn't know him. I didn't have a lot of time, I think I lacked this time very much. True, Hugo texted me and invited me on a date. Supposedly, he can't forget me...
I also felt bad when Hugo yelled at me. I don't think he's bad and I didn't want to offend him, but I still did and realized that I absolutely didn't know him. I didn't have a lot of time, I think I lacked this time very much. True, Hugo texted me and invited me on a date. Supposedly, he can't forget me...
Of course, I didn't go on date with him. It would be against the rules and this is not right with respect to guys who are still involved in this challenge. I answered him politely that I can be only his friend. I'm not sure he understood me as he didn't text me back. No matter what Hugo thinks, he must to create his life and be happy.
And Angelo was quite another. He was probably the only one of the three guys who left I don't feel bad for. It was right, and we both knew it. Angelo often texted me, and he's really good friend, so I know all details of his life. Since we are talking about Angelo, he didn't take long to find a woman and move with her in Windenburg. I am happy for him and I hoped this woman will know how to keep him next to herself.
And this is not all what troubles my soul and mind. I still live with Mathew, Carlo, Rupert and Vlad. The more time I spend with them, the more I know them and every time I experience something new in the relations with each of them. Believe me, it is not easy, although it's useful. So what can I say about each of them?
Mathew isn't a leader, I immediately noticed it. He is very intelligent, his every word is well thought out and not spoken unnecessarily. He has a power inside he doesn't show. But yes, alcohol is his weak side. Mathew can start his day without breakfast but he'll never forget to drink something stronger. However, he is very gentle inside and he never forgets to show me that I am important to him. This morning he also did that coming to me and taking me in his arms.
And Angelo was quite another. He was probably the only one of the three guys who left I don't feel bad for. It was right, and we both knew it. Angelo often texted me, and he's really good friend, so I know all details of his life. Since we are talking about Angelo, he didn't take long to find a woman and move with her in Windenburg. I am happy for him and I hoped this woman will know how to keep him next to herself.
And this is not all what troubles my soul and mind. I still live with Mathew, Carlo, Rupert and Vlad. The more time I spend with them, the more I know them and every time I experience something new in the relations with each of them. Believe me, it is not easy, although it's useful. So what can I say about each of them?
Mathew isn't a leader, I immediately noticed it. He is very intelligent, his every word is well thought out and not spoken unnecessarily. He has a power inside he doesn't show. But yes, alcohol is his weak side. Mathew can start his day without breakfast but he'll never forget to drink something stronger. However, he is very gentle inside and he never forgets to show me that I am important to him. This morning he also did that coming to me and taking me in his arms.
He has feelings about me... I can feel it when Mathew looks at me or talks to me, but he's timid and always waits for my initiative. And what about me? I care of Mathew and have a soft spot for him in my heart, but I am not sure it's a love.
Carlo is totally the opposite of Mathew. He is brave, very self-confident and is not afraid to show the initiative. His every morning begins with training, whether it's dancing, whether it's the gym. He doesn't accept almost any alcohol... By the way. Carlo and Mathew are the best friends although he is friendly with everyone.
Carlo is totally the opposite of Mathew. He is brave, very self-confident and is not afraid to show the initiative. His every morning begins with training, whether it's dancing, whether it's the gym. He doesn't accept almost any alcohol... By the way. Carlo and Mathew are the best friends although he is friendly with everyone.
I sincerely admire Carlo and his multifaceted personality. He has so many interests... I am sure he's successful everywhere, because he believes in what he does. Feelings? Yes, I have feelings for this amazing man and I see he feels the same about me. We're together like a firecracker. Is it good or not good? Now I'm thinking it's good, but time will show if I am right or not...
Rupert is great person, he is so talented and very creative and the creativity makes us close and good friends. He is also very romantic and even old-fashioned a bit, but all this makes him amazing. However, Rupert also isn't a leader. He is too quiet and too closed for that. Watching how he cares of his baby I find him as a wonderful father. I care of Rupert, he is very gentle and good person, but is it love? Time will show...
Vlad... I like him so much! Although he talks more than does something. He is full of charm, is very flexible and he knows how to make you smile and laugh or just feel you better. I started to believe that he is a real vampire... Maybe it's just because I like weirdos so much? And I hear the same inner voice what whispers me: "Time will show"...
Rupert is great person, he is so talented and very creative and the creativity makes us close and good friends. He is also very romantic and even old-fashioned a bit, but all this makes him amazing. However, Rupert also isn't a leader. He is too quiet and too closed for that. Watching how he cares of his baby I find him as a wonderful father. I care of Rupert, he is very gentle and good person, but is it love? Time will show...
Vlad... I like him so much! Although he talks more than does something. He is full of charm, is very flexible and he knows how to make you smile and laugh or just feel you better. I started to believe that he is a real vampire... Maybe it's just because I like weirdos so much? And I hear the same inner voice what whispers me: "Time will show"...
I have to admit I feel great living with these four men and I already had the plans for today. I brought them all to night club in Windenburg. We started our party with dance performance staged by Carlo.
Poor Mat... He hurt his back again. He wasn't just meant to be a dancer. And I was really surprised when I saw Angelo watching our dance.
He smiled looking at Mathew and chuckled:
- You need a good physical therapist, Mathew! Buonasera!
- You need a good physical therapist, Mathew! Buonasera!
- Let me introduce you missis Katrina Berlusconi! We got married not long time ago!
Oh my Goth! Angelo and Katrina Caliente! Well, they fit each other... Yes, she is older than Angelo, but love doesn't care about age. I could see Katrina is proud she is Angelo's wife. And can it be different? Her husband was one of the hottest and most charming men, so I am not surprised. I was also sure he'll not get rid of her so easily. If even Angelo will dare to cheat on his wife I didn't doubt she'll know how to revenge him and make him regret and come back to her...
And when I looked at Angelo I couldn't help laughing. He ate his wife with his eyes in literally meaning of this word. I could only imagine what thoughts were on his mind...
And when I looked at Angelo I couldn't help laughing. He ate his wife with his eyes in literally meaning of this word. I could only imagine what thoughts were on his mind...
And that evening Mat has got a fan. I have to admit she was beautiful, but I didn't like how she flattered him.
- I was in your concert! You are such cool band! Can you sign on my skin? I'll never wash your autograph, I'll live with you on my skin! And will sleep with you...
Oh my... I rolled my eyes looking at that girl and Mathew who felt confused a bit and I noticed how he got red. And there was that weird teen guy who wanted to be invited in Carlo's club in the future....
- I am sorry, but I am not alone here, - Mathew turned to me a bit. - I can sign on CD if you have it.
- I have your CD, but it's... - a girl smiled. - It's boring, don't you think so?
- I was in your concert! You are such cool band! Can you sign on my skin? I'll never wash your autograph, I'll live with you on my skin! And will sleep with you...
Oh my... I rolled my eyes looking at that girl and Mathew who felt confused a bit and I noticed how he got red. And there was that weird teen guy who wanted to be invited in Carlo's club in the future....
- I am sorry, but I am not alone here, - Mathew turned to me a bit. - I can sign on CD if you have it.
- I have your CD, but it's... - a girl smiled. - It's boring, don't you think so?
Mathew shook his head.
- No, I don't think it's boring... I'm sorry if I disappointed you.
Then some guy took a girl by her hand and dragged her aside saying her something.
- She almost got you, Mat! - Rupert laughed. - You are popular among the women!
- In the past I would be not only signed on her skin, - Mat smiled. - But now I came not for smooching with someone, so...
I laughed together with Rupert. The situation seemed ridiculous, but I sincerely appreciated Mathew's finesse.
- Thank you, Mat, - I said. - I appreciate it.
- You don't have to thank me, Rosen... I respect you and more...
- No, I don't think it's boring... I'm sorry if I disappointed you.
Then some guy took a girl by her hand and dragged her aside saying her something.
- She almost got you, Mat! - Rupert laughed. - You are popular among the women!
- In the past I would be not only signed on her skin, - Mat smiled. - But now I came not for smooching with someone, so...
I laughed together with Rupert. The situation seemed ridiculous, but I sincerely appreciated Mathew's finesse.
- Thank you, Mat, - I said. - I appreciate it.
- You don't have to thank me, Rosen... I respect you and more...
And here was one more surprise I didn't expect at all.
- Rosen! - I heard a familiar voice.
I turned back and saw Hugo.
- Oh, hi... - I waved coming to him closer.
- You are beautiful as always, - he complimented me.
- Thank you, - I chuckled feeling how my cheeks get red.
- Well... I am sorry for my behavior, I acted like idiot, but... I'm not bad person, Rosen, you don't need to fear me.
- I don't...
- Then why do you ignore me? You know that I'm not indifferent to you...
- Hugo... I can be only your friend.
- I don't accept it.
- You don't have another choice if you want to keep in touch with me.
- I have feelings for you, Rosen!
- Rosen! - I heard a familiar voice.
I turned back and saw Hugo.
- Oh, hi... - I waved coming to him closer.
- You are beautiful as always, - he complimented me.
- Thank you, - I chuckled feeling how my cheeks get red.
- Well... I am sorry for my behavior, I acted like idiot, but... I'm not bad person, Rosen, you don't need to fear me.
- I don't...
- Then why do you ignore me? You know that I'm not indifferent to you...
- Hugo... I can be only your friend.
- I don't accept it.
- You don't have another choice if you want to keep in touch with me.
- I have feelings for you, Rosen!
Suddenly I felt how someone took my hand from behind. I turned back and met dark burning Carlo's eyes. He pulled me in his embraces whispering to my ear:
- I'll not give you to him...
- Why? - I whispered back.
- Because I need you and I'll do anything you would choose me, - I felt his lips on my cheek.
I felt how my all body shivered in Carlo's embrace. He didn't step away, so we started dance slowly spinning round. I laughed silently and I didn't know why I did that. I guess just because I felt happy.
- I'll not give you to him...
- Why? - I whispered back.
- Because I need you and I'll do anything you would choose me, - I felt his lips on my cheek.
I felt how my all body shivered in Carlo's embrace. He didn't step away, so we started dance slowly spinning round. I laughed silently and I didn't know why I did that. I guess just because I felt happy.
I felt that magic again... I wanted to stay forever in Carlo's arms and enjoy the scent of his skin, but I had to remember myself that I can't allow it to myself yet. We slowly pulled back from one another. Carlo stood looking straight at my eyes and smiled. His smile was soft and gentle and it seemed I understand him without the words or I just can read his thoughts... Carlo just chuckled and said:
- I love you, Rosen... That's all what I want to say you this moment.
- I love you, Rosen... That's all what I want to say you this moment.
Then he turned and went somewhere. I stood following him with my eyes. I couldn't say any word as I felt dizzy. Dizzy of Carlo and that magic what I always felt when I was with him. It was weird... I even shook trying to get back my normal state and went upstairs to bar where suddenly I was caught by Vlad.
- My Rosen! I missed you! - he grinned funny and wrapped his arms around me. - Where were you?
- I was here, danced, - I chuckled.
- You had to be here, beside me, - Vlad kissed my cheek.
He was tipsy. I kissed his cheek back.
- Now I am right in your arms.
- That feels so great.... Mmm... - he squeezed me in his embrace.
- I hope you won't break my ribs! - I laughed.
- Nah... I need your cute ribs! - Vlad chuckled. - I prefer to bite you and sleep with you in my coffin!
- My Rosen! I missed you! - he grinned funny and wrapped his arms around me. - Where were you?
- I was here, danced, - I chuckled.
- You had to be here, beside me, - Vlad kissed my cheek.
He was tipsy. I kissed his cheek back.
- Now I am right in your arms.
- That feels so great.... Mmm... - he squeezed me in his embrace.
- I hope you won't break my ribs! - I laughed.
- Nah... I need your cute ribs! - Vlad chuckled. - I prefer to bite you and sleep with you in my coffin!
Vlad was crazy as always and he was tipsy, so I wasn't surprised at all when he left me in bar. He found something interesting on the first floor. But I wasn't here alone. Here were Mathew and Angelo, so I had a great company for great time and interesting discussion.
Later I felt so tired and probably cocktails helped in that, too... I just couldn't keep my eyes open, so I found a quiet place in club and... fell asleep on the couch.
Day 12, Thursday
So today is Thursday and it's already the twelfth day when we live in Tranquil Crescent. It's a special day to me, because I'm going on solo date with one of the men today. I decided to choose Vlad. Why? Because I want to make sure that his actions actually match his words. I really like Vlad and I'd like to get to know him better.
So today is Thursday and it's already the twelfth day when we live in Tranquil Crescent. It's a special day to me, because I'm going on solo date with one of the men today. I decided to choose Vlad. Why? Because I want to make sure that his actions actually match his words. I really like Vlad and I'd like to get to know him better.
When I and Vlad left home it was still early morning. I decided it would be great if we would spend our day in Windenburg. Vlad didn't mind my idea. The first place we visited was a community pool. Vlad and I had really great time there. We splashed each other and swam enjoying our time together.
After we went to one of bars the in Winderburg.
We talked to people and danced.
Everything would have been fine if Vlad wouldn't get drunk. The more he became drunk the more he forgot I am with him. He sat alone at the bar and talked nonsense to bartender.
I sat alone at the table with my first and only coctail that evening and watched Vlad with a smile on my face. Luckily, here was Randolph. He came to this bar accidentally, but at least, I got a chance to talk to my soul brother.
- It seems you are on date, - he pointed at Vlad.
- I think he is on date with himself, - I chuckled.
- I'm sorry, Rosen...
- Well... - I looked at my glass. - Let's talk about you better, - I smiled.
- What I can tell? I think you were right... - Randolph looked at me. - I met someone special.
- Really? I am happy for you! - I sincerely rejoiced.
- Thank you... And what about you, sister? - he smiled at me.
- Nothing special yet... Still looking, still trying to hear my inner voice and choose right.
- I think Vlad already lost his chance, - Randolph grinned.
- Don't say so...
- Well, I hope you'll still make a right decision.
- I hope.
- Ok... Now I have to go. Send me a message when you can, ok?
- Sure, - I nodded.
Randolph rose to his feet and left the bar.
- It seems you are on date, - he pointed at Vlad.
- I think he is on date with himself, - I chuckled.
- I'm sorry, Rosen...
- Well... - I looked at my glass. - Let's talk about you better, - I smiled.
- What I can tell? I think you were right... - Randolph looked at me. - I met someone special.
- Really? I am happy for you! - I sincerely rejoiced.
- Thank you... And what about you, sister? - he smiled at me.
- Nothing special yet... Still looking, still trying to hear my inner voice and choose right.
- I think Vlad already lost his chance, - Randolph grinned.
- Don't say so...
- Well, I hope you'll still make a right decision.
- I hope.
- Ok... Now I have to go. Send me a message when you can, ok?
- Sure, - I nodded.
Randolph rose to his feet and left the bar.
When Randolph left I waved to Vlad.
- Hey, I am here! - I laughed ironically. - Can you see me, Vlad?
- Hey, I am here! - I laughed ironically. - Can you see me, Vlad?
- Madam... - Vlad grinned and sat at the table on the same chair where Randolph just sat. He was so drunk... I even wasn't sure he sees something.
When he started laugh like some insane maniac I got worried seriously.
- I think it's time to go... - I said.
I paid for drinks to bartender and asked call the taxi. Taxi arrived quickly. I asked driver to take us to Lovers Get Away in Newcrest hoping that things will get better here and I was almost right. During our travel to Newcrest Vlad sobered up a bit.
- I am sorry, madam... - he said when we got out from the taxi.
- Well... - I grinned.
- I love you, madam, - he gave a rose.
Of course, I accepted it. I love roses.
I paid for drinks to bartender and asked call the taxi. Taxi arrived quickly. I asked driver to take us to Lovers Get Away in Newcrest hoping that things will get better here and I was almost right. During our travel to Newcrest Vlad sobered up a bit.
- I am sorry, madam... - he said when we got out from the taxi.
- Well... - I grinned.
- I love you, madam, - he gave a rose.
Of course, I accepted it. I love roses.
But after dinner all Vlad's efforts to stay sober ended in bedroom. He snorted like a locomotive...
I was very disappointed. But what I could do? I hardly woke up Vlad and we came back home. Better don't ask me how I felt...
Day 13, Friday
And the elimination day is here again. I really have to think about... In this house are two guys who are equally deserved to leave us today. It's not an easy decision for me, but let's hope I'll find the answer soon when I'll allow them to show me how they are talented in the kitchen.
And the elimination day is here again. I really have to think about... In this house are two guys who are equally deserved to leave us today. It's not an easy decision for me, but let's hope I'll find the answer soon when I'll allow them to show me how they are talented in the kitchen.
We arrived at the challenge place after the breakfast. Guys task is to make the highest quality food and prepare the widest range of cocktails and drinks. I already knew who will become a winner, but it will not affect my decision who will be eliminated today.
Mathew decided to prepare the baked potatoes because he likes the simplicity.
Mathew decided to prepare the baked potatoes because he likes the simplicity.
Rupert grilled the fruits.
Carlo grilled the sausages.
Vlad decided to prepare some burgers according to his own recipe.
Then came a time for the drinks and cocktails. Of course, Vlad prepared for us all red wine.
Carlo poured the white chardonnay wine.
Sure, Rupert felt like a fish in the water. Cocktails and drinks were his work, so he mixed some special and original cocktails for us all.
Mathew also knew how to mix cocktails...
We had a lot of fun tasting all them later. It seemed like we celebrate something. It wasn't bad to relax a bit before the elimination.
Yes, Rupert was the best in the kitchen and the best bartender and it was almost the first time when Carlo was the worst. He didn't get any point. But I still had the highest relationship with him... Mathew and Vlad received one point. They were better bartenders than Carlo, but not so good like Rupert. However, as I told before these points only give more chance to stay, but they don't affect my decision. This time I seriously decided to listen to my inner voice.
So we returned home and gathered in our club again. This time I gave the roses to men not because they were winners, but I took account of my relationship with them. I did it listening to my inner voice, not my logic.
I embraced Vlad as I couldn't give him a rose for some reason.
Yes, Rupert was the only I didn't give a rose and didn't embrace. He knew what that means and I saw he didn't want to believe in that he is the one who will leave this house today.
Yes, Rupert was the only I didn't give a rose and didn't embrace. He knew what that means and I saw he didn't want to believe in that he is the one who will leave this house today.
- Rupert... You are the one of the greatest people I have ever met, - I said him. - It's not easy to me to eliminate you, but... You didn't prove me enough you really want to be with me. No matter how many times I tried to get closer you didn't allow me to know you better. It's not enough to sleep next to me one night, Rupert, - I smiled. - It's not enough to recite love poems... I missed the sparkles between us. Let's stay friends, Rupert, if only you agree with that.
Rupert listened to me with a smile on his face.
- Well... Honestly I didn't expect I'll leave today. But... If it's your decision I have obey to it and respect it. Somewhere I made a mistake and it's pity I lost my chance to stay with you.
- I think it wasn't a mistake, Rupert, - I said. - You can't force to love someone yourself if your heart says different.
- I love you, Rosen! - Rupert chuckled.
- No... - I shook my head smiling. - I think we are more friends than lovers.
Rupert didn't argue with me. He just smiled and hugged me.
- I'll miss you, Rosen.
I didn't say him anything, just patted his back gently.
- I'll dress Rex and call the taxi... Let me know how you two reached your home later.
Rupert listened to me with a smile on his face.
- Well... Honestly I didn't expect I'll leave today. But... If it's your decision I have obey to it and respect it. Somewhere I made a mistake and it's pity I lost my chance to stay with you.
- I think it wasn't a mistake, Rupert, - I said. - You can't force to love someone yourself if your heart says different.
- I love you, Rosen! - Rupert chuckled.
- No... - I shook my head smiling. - I think we are more friends than lovers.
Rupert didn't argue with me. He just smiled and hugged me.
- I'll miss you, Rosen.
I didn't say him anything, just patted his back gently.
- I'll dress Rex and call the taxi... Let me know how you two reached your home later.
So why Rupert? Why not Vlad? They both had the same opportunities to leave. As I told I listened to my inner voice. I didn't like Vlad's behavior in bar, but honestly he was more closer to me than Rupert, so I gave him one more chance to fix his mistakes. But it was the only and the last chance. We'll see if Vlad will take it.
And now it's a time for party. I need a bit of hard industrial rhythm and boost my mood for the rest of day.