So... Things have changed and I didn't know how I should react to that. I couldn't ask Joshua to move out, because I knew that he can't stay alone. To call Avani and ask her to take him? I thought that she tries to get him back and just used his amnesia for her own purposes, but even if she is Joshua's kids mother I still didn't think I should do that. Joshua isn't furniture. I can't give him to someone just because he dates Avani. It was hard situation, but still... I decided to watch what will come next. No matter my sadness and disappointment, no matter anything. I hoped that we will find out who is responsible for his amnesia and we'll be able to help him. Then maybe Joshua can decide himself what to do. "We"... Yes, I said that. We are I and Dexter. Maybe Lilliana, too. Although I didn't know if I can really trust her. She could have her own purposes to help me. But... I wasn't afraid of anything. I tried to forget myself and my feelings, emotions. It couldn't help me. I thought many times about Dexter. I was really thankful to him. If not he everything would be much harder.
So I and Joshua still lived together as if nothing had happened. But one morning when we went to the gym I understood that the news about him and Avani have changed in me some things, too.
"Hey, hottie... What do you think if we play a bit somewhere hiding of the others' eyes?" suddenly Joshua said coming to me.
"What?!"
"Oh, come on!" He chuckled and stretched his hands to me wanting to bring me to himself.
But I pushed him away. I even didn't have time to notice how I did that. It was like a spontaneous reaction. And much more. I felt annoyed. I didn't want to be embraced.
So I and Joshua still lived together as if nothing had happened. But one morning when we went to the gym I understood that the news about him and Avani have changed in me some things, too.
"Hey, hottie... What do you think if we play a bit somewhere hiding of the others' eyes?" suddenly Joshua said coming to me.
"What?!"
"Oh, come on!" He chuckled and stretched his hands to me wanting to bring me to himself.
But I pushed him away. I even didn't have time to notice how I did that. It was like a spontaneous reaction. And much more. I felt annoyed. I didn't want to be embraced.
"What's wrong?" Joshua laughed. "I like you! Whether you want to spend the whole life like some prude?!"
"Stop it, Josh! You date the mother of your children! You even can't remember me! So stop it, please!" I exclaimed.
"And what? If I date her it doesn't mean that I can't do something with you, right?" Joshua grinned.
"Oh no, my boy!" I laughed angrily. "Even don't think of it, because. You. Can't!"
"And why?!" Joshua came closer to me. "Just because do you have someone who fucks you or just because you're worried of your cute ass?"
His words made me froze. I felt as if Joshua has hit me with his fist on the face. I stared at him speechless for a while. But it seems he quickly realized that he said too much as he mumbled something like "Shit..." and covered his mouth.
"Oh no, my boy!" I laughed angrily. "Even don't think of it, because. You. Can't!"
"And why?!" Joshua came closer to me. "Just because do you have someone who fucks you or just because you're worried of your cute ass?"
His words made me froze. I felt as if Joshua has hit me with his fist on the face. I stared at him speechless for a while. But it seems he quickly realized that he said too much as he mumbled something like "Shit..." and covered his mouth.
"What... Did you say?" I asked with husky voice. "Repeat it..."
Joshua smirked.
"Sorry, I can't take my words back... You heard what I said..." He said calm.
I came closer to him.
"Listen, macho! Surely, you are so cool, but I should say you are lucky that we are in public place now... Otherwise I will kick your ass with a big pleasure..."
"Sorry, I can't take my words back... You heard what I said..." He said calm.
I came closer to him.
"Listen, macho! Surely, you are so cool, but I should say you are lucky that we are in public place now... Otherwise I will kick your ass with a big pleasure..."
"Really?"
"Yes, be sure of that!" I nodded.
"You will never do that! You are too soft for that!" He laughed.
I shook my head ignoring his words. I had to ignore him and take myself in hands, 'cause otherwise I'd hit him.
He has changed and it was even more obvious than before. All these changes in his personality scared me, hurt me and made me feel absolutely helpless.
We worked out sitting against each other and I felt that the wall started grow up between us again.
"Yes, be sure of that!" I nodded.
"You will never do that! You are too soft for that!" He laughed.
I shook my head ignoring his words. I had to ignore him and take myself in hands, 'cause otherwise I'd hit him.
He has changed and it was even more obvious than before. All these changes in his personality scared me, hurt me and made me feel absolutely helpless.
We worked out sitting against each other and I felt that the wall started grow up between us again.
However, nothing lasts forever. Especially my happiness.