I and Dexter just sat at the bar and waited for our drinks. I felt much better and almost forgot my sadness and depressed mood. I looked at Dexter watching how he sways his head to the very rhythmic and fast music.
"This is electronic body music or just ebm", Dexter smiled and closed his eyes.
He was so relaxed, very natural and different at the same time. Dexter was happy just because he listened to the music he really liked. I was impressed. My decision to meet with him was very right. I needed such friend like Dexter.
"This is electronic body music or just ebm", Dexter smiled and closed his eyes.
He was so relaxed, very natural and different at the same time. Dexter was happy just because he listened to the music he really liked. I was impressed. My decision to meet with him was very right. I needed such friend like Dexter.
I realized that I'm also becoming relaxed. When bartender gave me my drink I tasted it and started to sway my head to the song that started to play.
"No wind can blow my faith away,
No fear to drown, I'm merging oceans
At mercy of the raging storm
I'm holding on to merging oceans
Horizon lost to creeping dark
No turning back, I'm merging oceans..."
I really liked lyrics and melody. Somehow it suited me or it just matched my mood and all what has happened few hours ago.
"No wind can blow my faith away,
No fear to drown, I'm merging oceans
At mercy of the raging storm
I'm holding on to merging oceans
Horizon lost to creeping dark
No turning back, I'm merging oceans..."
I really liked lyrics and melody. Somehow it suited me or it just matched my mood and all what has happened few hours ago.
Few more drinks I got relaxed even more... I and Dexter laughed almost at everything and just enjoyed our evening we spent together.
"I'd like to dance... Wanna go to night club?" Dexter asked me.
"Yes, it would be great!" I nodded. "Where would you like to go?
"To Windenburg, of course! Windenburg is a city of industrial and ebm music!" Dexter chuckled.
"OK!" I laughed together with him. "I'm for! I like your music!"
"Really?! Great!" Dexter rejoyced. "Then let's drink our drinks and I'll catch a cab for us!"
"I'd like to dance... Wanna go to night club?" Dexter asked me.
"Yes, it would be great!" I nodded. "Where would you like to go?
"To Windenburg, of course! Windenburg is a city of industrial and ebm music!" Dexter chuckled.
"OK!" I laughed together with him. "I'm for! I like your music!"
"Really?! Great!" Dexter rejoyced. "Then let's drink our drinks and I'll catch a cab for us!"
"We're going to "The Narwhal Arms" tonight. This club is much smaller than "Discotheque Pan Europa" and it's oriented to more alternative electronic music, so we'll hear something similar what we just heard when we were in the bar," Dexter said me when we entered Windenburg.
"Oh, really? That's great!" I smiled widely turning to Dexter. "You are my guide tonight!"
"It's a pleasure to me, my soul twin!" Dexter shrugged chuckling. "I'd like to share everything with you I have!"
I smiled at him. I was honestly thankful to Dexter for this evening. If not he I would be dying in sorrow and sadness at home.
And really "The Narwhal Arms" was small comparing to "Discotheque Pan Europa", this club reminded more a bar than club. But it was cozy and not so crowded like "Discotheque Pan Europa." I liked there.
"Let's go to dance synchronous!" Dexter couldn't stand in one place.
"Yes! Let's do that!"
I and Dexter occupied the dance floor.
"Oh, really? That's great!" I smiled widely turning to Dexter. "You are my guide tonight!"
"It's a pleasure to me, my soul twin!" Dexter shrugged chuckling. "I'd like to share everything with you I have!"
I smiled at him. I was honestly thankful to Dexter for this evening. If not he I would be dying in sorrow and sadness at home.
And really "The Narwhal Arms" was small comparing to "Discotheque Pan Europa", this club reminded more a bar than club. But it was cozy and not so crowded like "Discotheque Pan Europa." I liked there.
"Let's go to dance synchronous!" Dexter couldn't stand in one place.
"Yes! Let's do that!"
I and Dexter occupied the dance floor.
It was really great to dance as duet together. I have never did that before. Some guy who was already tipsy watched us and tried to imitate our dance.
"Hiya, guys! You dance fucking great! How are you doing that?" The stranger stared at my eyes.
"Simple... Just feel the rhythm and move your feet, mate!" I smiled.
"That ain't the answer, hottie. Never mind..." A man mumbled and staggered towards the bar.
"What?!" I chuckled. "Do you know him?" I asked Dexter.
"No!" Dexter shook his head laughing. "I see him first time here!"
"That ain't the answer, hottie. Never mind..." A man mumbled and staggered towards the bar.
"What?!" I chuckled. "Do you know him?" I asked Dexter.
"No!" Dexter shook his head laughing. "I see him first time here!"
"Hottie..." I laughed shaking my head. "He's totally drunk!"
"I think he really liked you", Dexter teased me.
"Come on!" I pushed him.
"What? That's true!" Dexter laughed and pushed me back.
I waved aside. Then Dexter came to me closer.
"I'm serious, Lucien. This man was right. You are special, I already told you that before. Just accept it!" He smiled widely.
I felt how my face gets warm.
"I think he really liked you", Dexter teased me.
"Come on!" I pushed him.
"What? That's true!" Dexter laughed and pushed me back.
I waved aside. Then Dexter came to me closer.
"I'm serious, Lucien. This man was right. You are special, I already told you that before. Just accept it!" He smiled widely.
I felt how my face gets warm.
"Well..." I said feeling that I want to ignore all compliments as they annoyed me. "I already heard that... And all these words were just a lie..."
"Do you mean Joshua?"
"Not only..." I shook my head. "I am tired of betrayals, of the violence, lies and losses!" I didn't even notice how my all hidden emotions started to erupt of me. "If I'm happy, then surely somebody has to take a happiness away from me! If I love, then someone has to deceive me! I'm tired! Fuck it!"
Dexter just stood and listened to me. He smiled and it was so hard to understand what hides under his smile. But I knew the one - he doesn't laugh at me and he's honest with me if even he hides his real emotions.
"Do you mean Joshua?"
"Not only..." I shook my head. "I am tired of betrayals, of the violence, lies and losses!" I didn't even notice how my all hidden emotions started to erupt of me. "If I'm happy, then surely somebody has to take a happiness away from me! If I love, then someone has to deceive me! I'm tired! Fuck it!"
Dexter just stood and listened to me. He smiled and it was so hard to understand what hides under his smile. But I knew the one - he doesn't laugh at me and he's honest with me if even he hides his real emotions.
In fact, I didn't care what hides under his smile. Alcohol and the events of the day have done their own job... I couldn't hold my tears. All was too much... I felt all my scars again and just wanted to scream.
"Shit..." Dexter mumbled. "I'm really sorry... I didn't want to hurt you, Lucien..."
"It's not your fault, Dexter..." I shook my head and turned my face feeling ashamed. "Sorry for my weakness..."
"It's OK..." Dexter wrapped his arm around my shoulders and squeezed me slightly. "We are alive and have feelings. We all cry sometimes..."
"Thanks..." I said silently. "I'll go to WC..."
"Sure, my soul twin," Dexter smiled warmly patting my shoulder.
I smiled at him back and quickly rushed to WC. To cry in public isn't my thing.
"Thanks..." I said silently. "I'll go to WC..."
"Sure, my soul twin," Dexter smiled warmly patting my shoulder.
I smiled at him back and quickly rushed to WC. To cry in public isn't my thing.
Yes, I needed to wash my face and get myself back. I felt very embarrassed against Dexter and silently scolded myself. I didn't want to be weak in his eyes. Although that moment I was and I admitted it to myself. It was so good to feel a cold water on my face. I felt how I calmed down. "No more drinks for me tonight..." I said to myself. I didn't want to turn to mushy girl or to some drama queen. It was enough that I was very vulnerable and I couldn't stand it. However, I couldn't run from myself away.
When I returned I found Dexter waiting for me. He smiled at me and waved.
"Come! I ordered some dinner for us!"
"Oh, that's a great idea! You are genius!" I smiled at him. "I even forgot that I'm hungry!"
"Then it's a time to remember it", Dexter said pulling a chair.
We sat at the table and started to eat.
"How are you?" Dexter asked me.
"Better..." I said. "Really much better..." I assured him.
"I'm glad..." Dexter smiled. "I'm sorry, if I'm too nosy, but... It's not only about Joshua, right?"
I gave a sight.
"Yes... You are right... It's not only about Joshua.."
"Come! I ordered some dinner for us!"
"Oh, that's a great idea! You are genius!" I smiled at him. "I even forgot that I'm hungry!"
"Then it's a time to remember it", Dexter said pulling a chair.
We sat at the table and started to eat.
"How are you?" Dexter asked me.
"Better..." I said. "Really much better..." I assured him.
"I'm glad..." Dexter smiled. "I'm sorry, if I'm too nosy, but... It's not only about Joshua, right?"
I gave a sight.
"Yes... You are right... It's not only about Joshua.."
"I understand you... If you don't want to talk about it, it's OK, Lucien... I was there myself, so... But it will pass..."
I looked at my friend.
"Yeah..." I nodded. "Maybe someday, but now... It's just too hard..."
"Of course..."
"Joshua... I still can't believe..."
"Well..." Dexter bit his own lip making a short pause. "Joshua... I didn't like him since the beginning when I recognized him."
"Do you know Joshua?"
"No, personally I didn't know him, but one of my friends Jonathan got in troubles with him few years ago... But seeing you and him so happy I didn't want to interfere."
I raised my eyebrow. I was surprised.
"So that's why did you avoid him?" I asked.
"You can say..." I nodded. "It wasn't pleasant to remember my friend..."
"Were they couple?"
"No," Dexter shook his head. "They studied in the same university... Joshua involved Jonathan in big troubles, although my friend was also guilty. And after few years I met you both in the park... I thought why I have a sense that I know your boyfriend... Then I remembered..."
"I'm really sorry..." I said. Dexter's words made me sad again.
I wasn't sure if I want to know what Joshua and Dexter's friend did wrong and in what troubles they have got in, so I didn't ask Dexter about it.
I looked at my friend.
"Yeah..." I nodded. "Maybe someday, but now... It's just too hard..."
"Of course..."
"Joshua... I still can't believe..."
"Well..." Dexter bit his own lip making a short pause. "Joshua... I didn't like him since the beginning when I recognized him."
"Do you know Joshua?"
"No, personally I didn't know him, but one of my friends Jonathan got in troubles with him few years ago... But seeing you and him so happy I didn't want to interfere."
I raised my eyebrow. I was surprised.
"So that's why did you avoid him?" I asked.
"You can say..." I nodded. "It wasn't pleasant to remember my friend..."
"Were they couple?"
"No," Dexter shook his head. "They studied in the same university... Joshua involved Jonathan in big troubles, although my friend was also guilty. And after few years I met you both in the park... I thought why I have a sense that I know your boyfriend... Then I remembered..."
"I'm really sorry..." I said. Dexter's words made me sad again.
I wasn't sure if I want to know what Joshua and Dexter's friend did wrong and in what troubles they have got in, so I didn't ask Dexter about it.
"You don't have to sorry..." Dexter said. "I just believed that he has changed as he was with you..."
"Do you think that people can change if they are with me?" I smiled. "Come on! I'm not perfect, Dexter... I am naive and silly..." I said sadly. "If I would be different now I would be in my planet Sixam and would live totally different life..."
"Well... I'm glad that you're here... Otherwise I'd never have met you. And stop calling yourself nave and silly. You're great, Lucien..." Dexter said looking straight into my eyes.
"Do you think that people can change if they are with me?" I smiled. "Come on! I'm not perfect, Dexter... I am naive and silly..." I said sadly. "If I would be different now I would be in my planet Sixam and would live totally different life..."
"Well... I'm glad that you're here... Otherwise I'd never have met you. And stop calling yourself nave and silly. You're great, Lucien..." Dexter said looking straight into my eyes.
I felt how my cheeks started burn again. Is it the effect of alcohol or it's just... Dexter?
"I'm glad you think of me better than I do.." I smiled.
"I'm just..." Dexter said still staring at my eyes. "I think you know..."
I knew. Although I didn't know how to say it Dexter. I just nodded and didn't feel how I closed my eyes, concentrated my energy and merged with Dexter. I did that because I just wanted that. To merge with him again. It felt so natural. Dexter was... like part of me or just like my another half. It was weird, I've never experienced it with anyone else. And I didn't know another better explanation, except that one... If it's really possible he's my soul twin..
"I'm glad you think of me better than I do.." I smiled.
"I'm just..." Dexter said still staring at my eyes. "I think you know..."
I knew. Although I didn't know how to say it Dexter. I just nodded and didn't feel how I closed my eyes, concentrated my energy and merged with Dexter. I did that because I just wanted that. To merge with him again. It felt so natural. Dexter was... like part of me or just like my another half. It was weird, I've never experienced it with anyone else. And I didn't know another better explanation, except that one... If it's really possible he's my soul twin..
Dexter looked at me with the exploring glance.
"That was... Just Wow..." He said. "When you merge with me, I get the feeling that I can see the world not only with my eyes, but with yours, too. It's really... weird, but I like it..."
I listened to Dexter and smiled.
"I'm glad it doesn't scare you... And you can feel it and control yourself. You are first person who can withstand my energy..."
Then I remembered that Joshua can't do that... Archer was afraid of it. But Dexter could. It's really weird.
"That was... Just Wow..." He said. "When you merge with me, I get the feeling that I can see the world not only with my eyes, but with yours, too. It's really... weird, but I like it..."
I listened to Dexter and smiled.
"I'm glad it doesn't scare you... And you can feel it and control yourself. You are first person who can withstand my energy..."
Then I remembered that Joshua can't do that... Archer was afraid of it. But Dexter could. It's really weird.
"It's just because we are bonded, so now you'll not get rid of me!" Dexter joked.
"Is it possible to get rid of your twin?" I smiled.
"I think it's not recommended", Dexter said.
"Yeah... Is it mean we will die on the same day?"
"Then we have to buy a double coffin!" Dexter laughed. "And I'll invite to our funeral party "Llama Kings" and "Combichrist"!
"Is it possible to get rid of your twin?" I smiled.
"I think it's not recommended", Dexter said.
"Yeah... Is it mean we will die on the same day?"
"Then we have to buy a double coffin!" Dexter laughed. "And I'll invite to our funeral party "Llama Kings" and "Combichrist"!
"Ha! Ha!" I laughed. "I'm afraid that we'll not want to die then!"
I and Dexter had a blast. We both laughed hard and it seemed as if we could laugh without stopping almost at everything.
"Hey, man!" suddenly Dexter raised his hand. "I have an idea!"
"What idea?"
"Let us be cyber-alien-romantics and meet the sunrise! I know one very beautiful place... So what do you think?"
"I think that's great idea..." I nodded.
"Cool! Then let's go..."
"Is it far away?"
"Yeah, but we always can call the taxi", Dexter smiled and pulled his phone out from the pocket.
Well, Dexter is a genius and he always has the best ideas.
I and Dexter had a blast. We both laughed hard and it seemed as if we could laugh without stopping almost at everything.
"Hey, man!" suddenly Dexter raised his hand. "I have an idea!"
"What idea?"
"Let us be cyber-alien-romantics and meet the sunrise! I know one very beautiful place... So what do you think?"
"I think that's great idea..." I nodded.
"Cool! Then let's go..."
"Is it far away?"
"Yeah, but we always can call the taxi", Dexter smiled and pulled his phone out from the pocket.
Well, Dexter is a genius and he always has the best ideas.
Llama Kings - alternative rock band from Pammiechick's story "Day&Knight". You can read the story here.
Combichrist - american agrotech band formed since 2003.
Combichrist - american agrotech band formed since 2003.