Our life together like a roller-coaster ride. Tina gets angry very quickly when I try to explain her my fear of commitment. I told her at once that I was married and I wasn't happy, I told her about my mission and legacy, but she even didn't try to understand it.
- Stop talking nonsense! - she always raised her voice. - I am your girlfriend, we live together and you still want to have children with other women?
- I don't want that, I have to do that! Can you see the difference between desire and duty?
- Stop it!
And I stopped. I didn't have another choice. Honestly I love Tina, but I don't like her stubbornness and assertiveness.
- Stop talking nonsense! - she always raised her voice. - I am your girlfriend, we live together and you still want to have children with other women?
- I don't want that, I have to do that! Can you see the difference between desire and duty?
- Stop it!
And I stopped. I didn't have another choice. Honestly I love Tina, but I don't like her stubbornness and assertiveness.
But here's other side what I love so much. If we argued we always made it up and forgot all quarrels. Our passion remembered a fire. We made love anywhere wherever it was possible.
So soon I heard the Big News. Tina is pregnant! I was on cloud nine in happiness! I'll be daddy! Endlich!
But I have to say pregnant Tina is a real headache...
- Now you have to marry me as I am pregnant! - she said me one morning.
- I can't, Tina! Maybe later, but not now!
- Later?! When?! - she glanced at me like at the biggest enemy or villain. - When I'll be old?!
- Now you have to marry me as I am pregnant! - she said me one morning.
- I can't, Tina! Maybe later, but not now!
- Later?! When?! - she glanced at me like at the biggest enemy or villain. - When I'll be old?!
- When I'll have five kids...
- And you are gonna have them all with other women? You are a real whore, Salvador!
- Why do you hurt me, Tina? - I looked at her upset. - I love you and you know that...
- And you are gonna have them all with other women? You are a real whore, Salvador!
- Why do you hurt me, Tina? - I looked at her upset. - I love you and you know that...
Tina gave a deep sigh and sat next to me.
- Listen to me, Sal... I love you, too, and I think if we are couple and gonna have a baby we should be married. If not for us, then for our baby. Do I think wrong, my love?
- No, you think right, but... I told you about my legacy, mein Schatz. I have a mission and untill I'll not fulfill it I can't marry you. Do you understand? - I looked at her eyes.
- No, - Tina shook her head. - I don't understand it. But I will try...
- Listen to me, Sal... I love you, too, and I think if we are couple and gonna have a baby we should be married. If not for us, then for our baby. Do I think wrong, my love?
- No, you think right, but... I told you about my legacy, mein Schatz. I have a mission and untill I'll not fulfill it I can't marry you. Do you understand? - I looked at her eyes.
- No, - Tina shook her head. - I don't understand it. But I will try...
We embraced each other and I knew we will live in peace for some time.
But I have to be honest and confess it wasn't easy to me. I feel a lot of pressure from Tina's side. I fear the marriage as I won't be hurt anymore. When someone reminds you how ugly you are in fact, it's not pleasant, believe me. I blamed myself many times for falling in love with Tina, but... I am alive and I have feelings, so I was too weak to fight against my wish to love someone.
Love is for love, but I couldn't forget that I have to look for other women who could give me babies. My restaurant was a good place for that, but soon I learnt a lesson when I tried to flirt with my new waitress.
- Endschuldigung Sie, Herr Blauber?! I am engaged, besides, I don't get in love affairs at work place, especially with my boss. And... Did you look at yourself in the mirror, Herr Blauber? - she burst in laughter.
Love is for love, but I couldn't forget that I have to look for other women who could give me babies. My restaurant was a good place for that, but soon I learnt a lesson when I tried to flirt with my new waitress.
- Endschuldigung Sie, Herr Blauber?! I am engaged, besides, I don't get in love affairs at work place, especially with my boss. And... Did you look at yourself in the mirror, Herr Blauber? - she burst in laughter.
Her words pierced me like a dagger. I am for the truth, but sometimes it's better not hear it from other person's mouth. I muttered something covering my face.
- I am sorry... - she giggled. - I have a lot of work.
- Su... Sure, - I nodded.
- I am sorry... - she giggled. - I have a lot of work.
- Su... Sure, - I nodded.
"No... No more flirt with my employees!" - I thought feeling very embarrassed. Will I have to live always thinking of it how ugly I am? I think I will have... But I have a hope that my children will be more happy than me. That's why I started my mission and legacy.
And how's ironic! I got hungry, so I had to book a table and this waitress had to take my order. Now she smiled at me and was sweeter than honey when she talked to me. Honestly, I wanted puke, but I pretended that it's fine. Salvador Blauber is just ugly idiot who doesn't have feelings, but he has money, so he is useful.
I closed "Salvador's Hideout" very late. I was tired and moody. I didn't want to drive by my car home. I stayed it near my restaurant and decided to take a walk a bit. When I am sad I never drive by my car.
When I came back home Tina already waited for me. She pulled me in the kiss and I was so grateful her for that.
That moment I believed she's the only person in the whole world who really loves me.