When Joshua moved to me, my life became very colorful and full of happiness. Now I and Joshua every morning went to gym together.
We always fooled around and laughed.
The laughter and light innocent flirt made us even more close than before. We laughed and made fun anywhere. Our life together was like an endless holiday. We even didn't care what people will think of us.
I and Joshua were the best friends and even more... I was in love with him. The love was a miracle to me. I didn't expect that at all, because I thought that after all what happened many years ago I can never love anyone... Because I've never talked about my feelings to Joshua I decided to do that one day when we returned home from workout in the gym.
"Josh... I think I'll not tell anything new to you.." I started. "As you know I love you and would like to call you my boyfriend... Sure, if I'm allowed to do that..." I felt how I got red.
Joshua narrowed his eyes making a weird grimace.
"Well... If you need the titles I can be your boyfriend..."
"Josh... I think I'll not tell anything new to you.." I started. "As you know I love you and would like to call you my boyfriend... Sure, if I'm allowed to do that..." I felt how I got red.
Joshua narrowed his eyes making a weird grimace.
"Well... If you need the titles I can be your boyfriend..."
"What?" I chuckled feeling very awkward. "I need not the titles, I need you!"
"Sorry... Shit... Don't take my words too serious, I said it accidentally..." Joshua covered his mouth staring at my eyes.
"Sorry... Shit... Don't take my words too serious, I said it accidentally..." Joshua covered his mouth staring at my eyes.
"You already said it, Josh... Never mind..." I said feeling very upset. I couldn't hide it. "I just thought that's important to you like to me. Sorry... But... Maybe you have already boyfriend or girlfriend? I know nothing about you..."
"Lucien..."
"Anyway..." I already wanted to go, but Joshua stopped me.
"Wait... Don't get me wrong, please", Joshua smiled.
"Anyway..." I already wanted to go, but Joshua stopped me.
"Wait... Don't get me wrong, please", Joshua smiled.
Suddenly he took me by my hand, pulled me to himself and kissed me on my lips.
"What does this mean?" I pushed gently Joshua away, although I almost melted when his lips touched mine.
"I'm not indifferent to you, Lucien. I just don't like the commitments."
"I'm not indifferent to you, Lucien. I just don't like the commitments."
"Aye..." I chuckled not hiding my sarcasm. "I thought that only teenagers avoid the commitments! But honestly I didn't ask you to marry me, I just want to call you my boyfriend as I have feelings for you. Is that too much for you? If yes, then forget our conversation!" Suddenly I felt offended and almost couldn't control my emotions.
"Wait.. Wait, Lucien..." Joshua tried to calm me down. "Let me talk, please!"
"Wait.. Wait, Lucien..." Joshua tried to calm me down. "Let me talk, please!"
"Talk..." I said.
"I didn't want to hurt or offend you", Joshua's voice was calm and soothed me. He talked looking straight at my eyes, gently touched my chin. "Forgive me, please..."
"I didn't want to hurt or offend you", Joshua's voice was calm and soothed me. He talked looking straight at my eyes, gently touched my chin. "Forgive me, please..."
"I am your boyfriend, Lucien... I was always and I thought that you know that, that you don't care about the titles. But if you need to hear that, I'm OK with that, baby.."
"Baby?" I said silently.
"Yes, you're my baby, Lucien..." Joshua answered taking my hand and putting it on his waist, he pulled me closer and I embraced him with my another hand.
"Baby?" I said silently.
"Yes, you're my baby, Lucien..." Joshua answered taking my hand and putting it on his waist, he pulled me closer and I embraced him with my another hand.
"I love you, Lucien..." Joshua whispered wrapping his arms around my neck.
"I love you, too..." I said staring at his lips. I so badly wanted to kiss Joshua.
"I love you, too..." I said staring at his lips. I so badly wanted to kiss Joshua.
He pushed me gently away and kissed my cheek playfully.
"Smile or I'll tickle you to death!"
Suddenly I felt how his fingers are running on my sides.
"Stop it!" I laughed. "Naughty boy!"
"Smile or I'll tickle you to death!"
Suddenly I felt how his fingers are running on my sides.
"Stop it!" I laughed. "Naughty boy!"
"Yes, I'm very naughty, but you don't know that yet," Joshua winked at me making me blush and pulled me in his embrace again.
Oh, my... You'll break my ribs, Josh!" I shouted. He was really strong and though guy.
Oh, my... You'll break my ribs, Josh!" I shouted. He was really strong and though guy.
"Embrace me, baby, and say that you forgave me, please" Joshua whispered.
"I forgave you.." I said embracing Joshua.
"I forgave you.." I said embracing Joshua.
Yes, I really forgave Joshua, but I knew that he hides something from me. I felt it... Although I can't blame Joshua. He didn't know neither the truth about me.