It was already noon, when I heard the sounds like someone is walking. "Joshua", I thought and rushed up the stairs looking around where he could be.
"Josh!" I shouted.
He didn't answer.
Joshua's voice came from the bathroom. When I entered the bathroom he even didn't pay his attention to me. He sang some childish song and cleaned the bath.
"Josh! What are you doing here?" I frowned looking at him. "Where were you?"
"Too muuuuch questions... Ask slowlyyyyyy!" He sang me.
"Josh!" I shouted.
He didn't answer.
Joshua's voice came from the bathroom. When I entered the bathroom he even didn't pay his attention to me. He sang some childish song and cleaned the bath.
"Josh! What are you doing here?" I frowned looking at him. "Where were you?"
"Too muuuuch questions... Ask slowlyyyyyy!" He sang me.
"OK... Then first question - what are you doing here?"
"I am cleaning the bath, don't you see?" Joshua looked at me. His eyes were like a glass. "I need to take a bath... And ships will not sink then..."
I shook my head trying to ignore his incoherent thoughts.
"OK... And second question... Where were you?"
"Where?" He chuckled.
"Josh... Answer, please! I was worried about you!" I felt that my patience will end soon.
"I don't know..." He shrugged. "I was somewhere..."
"Were you with your girlfriend?"
"What girlfriend?"
"Avani..."
"Ah, Avani!" Joshua nodded and suddenly frowned. "Why the hell are you questioning me?! Are you my mother or what?!"
"OK..." I nodded. "We'll talk later then. Take your bath!"
I left the bathroom feeling that soon I will start to howl in the anger and despair. I felt totally helpless to change something and then I realized that I've lost Joshua again. And it can be that I've lost him forever.
"I am cleaning the bath, don't you see?" Joshua looked at me. His eyes were like a glass. "I need to take a bath... And ships will not sink then..."
I shook my head trying to ignore his incoherent thoughts.
"OK... And second question... Where were you?"
"Where?" He chuckled.
"Josh... Answer, please! I was worried about you!" I felt that my patience will end soon.
"I don't know..." He shrugged. "I was somewhere..."
"Were you with your girlfriend?"
"What girlfriend?"
"Avani..."
"Ah, Avani!" Joshua nodded and suddenly frowned. "Why the hell are you questioning me?! Are you my mother or what?!"
"OK..." I nodded. "We'll talk later then. Take your bath!"
I left the bathroom feeling that soon I will start to howl in the anger and despair. I felt totally helpless to change something and then I realized that I've lost Joshua again. And it can be that I've lost him forever.
I sit on the coach long time thinking what to do. It was hard to take any decision, but I knew that I have to do that. I still had feelings for Joshua, but it was so doubtful if he still feels something for me. He has changed. Someone manipulated him and honesty, I felt very bad for that. So I had to do that. Step away and just let him be.
"So what did you want to tell me?" Joshua sat next to me. "Maybe you have changed your mind and will do jigga-jigga with me?" He laughed.
"Oh, Josh! Come on! Are you drunk or what?!"
"So what did you want to tell me?" Joshua sat next to me. "Maybe you have changed your mind and will do jigga-jigga with me?" He laughed.
"Oh, Josh! Come on! Are you drunk or what?!"
"Oh, you are such Diva, aren't you?" Joshua poked me making a flirty voice. "Just stop pretending that you don't want that!"
Then my phone rang. It was a message from Dexter.
Are you OK?
I quickly texted him back.
Yes... Although I am not sure. Call you later.
Joshua sat and just thought something. He seemed me even serious and I was afraid that he will surprise me in not very pleasant way again. However, it was not this what I expected.
Are you OK?
I quickly texted him back.
Yes... Although I am not sure. Call you later.
Joshua sat and just thought something. He seemed me even serious and I was afraid that he will surprise me in not very pleasant way again. However, it was not this what I expected.
Joshua stood up and said.
"OK... You are ignoring me. But I don't care you know? So you can sit here and pretend that I don't exist!"
"Josh..."
He didn't listen to me and left the room.
"OK... You are ignoring me. But I don't care you know? So you can sit here and pretend that I don't exist!"
"Josh..."
He didn't listen to me and left the room.
Honestly, I didn't understand anything. I was unable to realize what's going with Joshua and both of us. But I knew one - it can't last longer. "I have to stop it!" I thought about my decision again. "Right now. No matter what he will say and how he will react to it..."
Soon I heard his steps.
"Josh!" I called him over.
"What?" He opened the door.
Joshua wore his swimwear and it seemed he even didn't care about our complicated relationship. It was only me who felt really bad about us.
"Josh... I wanted to talk to you, but you left..."
"What the hell do you want from me?" He asked me not hiding his annoyance.
"I want nothing from you, Josh! Except one - to understand what the hell is going with you! But I asked you to come not for that, Josh..."
Soon I heard his steps.
"Josh!" I called him over.
"What?" He opened the door.
Joshua wore his swimwear and it seemed he even didn't care about our complicated relationship. It was only me who felt really bad about us.
"Josh... I wanted to talk to you, but you left..."
"What the hell do you want from me?" He asked me not hiding his annoyance.
"I want nothing from you, Josh! Except one - to understand what the hell is going with you! But I asked you to come not for that, Josh..."
"Then why for?"
I gave a sigh.
"I don't know what you can remember about us and what you can't, but... I can't stand it longer, Josh...."
"What are you talking about?"
"Let's stay just friends, Josh! That's what I'm meaning!"
"What does it mean?"
"It means we will be just friends, you will date Avani and I will live my own life!"
I gave a sigh.
"I don't know what you can remember about us and what you can't, but... I can't stand it longer, Josh...."
"What are you talking about?"
"Let's stay just friends, Josh! That's what I'm meaning!"
"What does it mean?"
"It means we will be just friends, you will date Avani and I will live my own life!"
Joshua frowned. It seemed he didn't like my idea.
"That's all you want?" He asked me.
"Yep..." I nodded.
Suddenly Joshua's face has changed.
"So did you decide to get rid of me?!" He yelled at me stomping the floor.
"I didn't say you that! You can live at my home. But we aren't together anymore..."
Suddenly Joshua's face has changed.
"So did you decide to get rid of me?!" He yelled at me stomping the floor.
"I didn't say you that! You can live at my home. But we aren't together anymore..."
"Yes! That's OK! I don't need such Diva like you! That girl is much better than you!"
"OK..." I agreed calmly.
Joshua yelled cursing and calling me in bad names, but I just watched him and couldn't believe that it's really going in my life, that's not some bad dream.
"OK..." I agreed calmly.
Joshua yelled cursing and calling me in bad names, but I just watched him and couldn't believe that it's really going in my life, that's not some bad dream.
It wasn't. Unfortunately... It was my reality.
That day I realized that I can't be sure about anything in my life, except for the one thing only. I did right breaking up with Joshua.
That day I realized that I can't be sure about anything in my life, except for the one thing only. I did right breaking up with Joshua.