Does it worth to tell how bad I felt? But it was only for the sake of both of us. I always tried to remind myself that changes nothing as I was already alone when someone erased Joshua's memory. But it wasn't so easy. I realized how I am chaotic myself. I admitted myself that I am restless soul what can't find a place in this world. Still alone, still looking for something... It hurt me and made me feel almost depressed. So I tried only to sleep and work. Joshua neither paid his attention to me. He lived in his own world and I lived my life. Sometimes I talked to Dexter. He was the only person who supported me and tried to bring back my motivation to live and enjoy the life. I mourned my past where I and Joshua were happy about three weeks if not longer. One day when my colleagues started to talk about coming Romance Festival I thought that perhaps it's a time for me to go there and change the environment even for short. Especially when my colleagues were so excited about this event. They told the stories how their friends or themselves met their spouses in that festival or they just had love adventures there... They joked and laughed like some teenagers and even teased me that I must go there and find someone special for myself as they need the big wedding party. Well, they were my colleagues and wanted to see me happy. I also wanted to feel happy, but I didn't have such plans like to find someone special in Romance Festival. I just needed the smiles and more positive environment in life. Nothing more.
So one Saturday noon I went to Romance Festival. In the beginning I felt strange there. It seemed like everyone is in love, except me. I felt so lonely there... I even wanted to hide. So entered the bar what was completely empty and ordered a drink. "I could invite Dexter..." I thought. However, this idea seemed me wrong. Dexter would have misunderstood me... I didn't want to have more misunderstandings and confusion in my life, I already had it enough. So it was better to be alone here. Just to taste your drink and think...
So one Saturday noon I went to Romance Festival. In the beginning I felt strange there. It seemed like everyone is in love, except me. I felt so lonely there... I even wanted to hide. So entered the bar what was completely empty and ordered a drink. "I could invite Dexter..." I thought. However, this idea seemed me wrong. Dexter would have misunderstood me... I didn't want to have more misunderstandings and confusion in my life, I already had it enough. So it was better to be alone here. Just to taste your drink and think...
However, I couldn't hide in the bar forever. I wanted to see happy people and their smiles. I paid for my drink to bartender and went outside.
The weather was great although the cloudy sky prophesied the rain. I even could feel all this romantic mood in the air, especially when I saw so many happy couple and just people who tried to find someone special for themselves or those who came to have a good time and enjoy the festival.
Looking around I noticed a woman. She was elder, but still beautiful. The woman wore a long oriental dress, her face witnessed about the profound wisdom and life experience. I don't know why, but I had a sense I had to notice that woman.
The weather was great although the cloudy sky prophesied the rain. I even could feel all this romantic mood in the air, especially when I saw so many happy couple and just people who tried to find someone special for themselves or those who came to have a good time and enjoy the festival.
Looking around I noticed a woman. She was elder, but still beautiful. The woman wore a long oriental dress, her face witnessed about the profound wisdom and life experience. I don't know why, but I had a sense I had to notice that woman.
She turned her face to me and smiled.
"Come closer, dear..." A woman said me with gentle calm voice. "I know that you'd like to talk to me..."
"Oh..." I felt a bit confused for a moment, but I smiled at her and came closer as she asked.
"Come closer, dear..." A woman said me with gentle calm voice. "I know that you'd like to talk to me..."
"Oh..." I felt a bit confused for a moment, but I smiled at her and came closer as she asked.
"Hello... I am Lucien..."
"Very nice to meet you, Lucien... I am Miriam. Today I am here to help people to hear the voice of their heart and to find the right decision."
"Are you fortune-teller, lady Miriam?"
"No, my dear... I don't use the cards or magic ball and never ask to pay for my help. Universe gave me a big gift and I use it to help people. Their happiness is the greatest pay for me."
"OK..." I nodded. "That"s really great, lady Miriam... And how are you gonna to help me?" I asked.
A mysterious woman smiled at me and then looked at my eyes.
"You suffer... You are very special, but so unhappy, my child... You look for love, but can't find it. Do you know why?"
"No..." I shook my head.
Her words made me surprised and a bit ashamed. Sure, Miriam was right. But how could she know that?
"Just because you are blind, my dear..."
"What do you mean, lady?"
"I mean that you should stop look in the distance when your true love is next to you! Just look inside you, you know that person!"
"Very nice to meet you, Lucien... I am Miriam. Today I am here to help people to hear the voice of their heart and to find the right decision."
"Are you fortune-teller, lady Miriam?"
"No, my dear... I don't use the cards or magic ball and never ask to pay for my help. Universe gave me a big gift and I use it to help people. Their happiness is the greatest pay for me."
"OK..." I nodded. "That"s really great, lady Miriam... And how are you gonna to help me?" I asked.
A mysterious woman smiled at me and then looked at my eyes.
"You suffer... You are very special, but so unhappy, my child... You look for love, but can't find it. Do you know why?"
"No..." I shook my head.
Her words made me surprised and a bit ashamed. Sure, Miriam was right. But how could she know that?
"Just because you are blind, my dear..."
"What do you mean, lady?"
"I mean that you should stop look in the distance when your true love is next to you! Just look inside you, you know that person!"
I looked surprised at the woman. Her words pierced my heart. Something inside me didn't want to accept it, but I knew that she's right.
"No matter how much you will try to run away from that person you can never do that. You have a very special bond... You know what I mean, my child."
"Yes..." I even didn't feel how I mumbled it.
"This person is your only truly love and he awaits you... But..."
"But?"
"But never forget that to be together with your soul twin is easy and hard at the same time. You reflect each other as you are the mirrors to each another and there will be many hard lessons you two will have to learn, but he is the only person on this planet who loves you just because you exist, who loves you without reservation if even you rejected him and hurt his feelings. So all depends on you, my dear Lucien! You can still be blind and look for someone who will never complete you like your soul twin and continue believing in your illusions or just go and embrace your love... It's up to you!"
I almost cried listening to that wonderful woman. I unwittingly chuckled closing my eyes.
"No matter how much you will try to run away from that person you can never do that. You have a very special bond... You know what I mean, my child."
"Yes..." I even didn't feel how I mumbled it.
"This person is your only truly love and he awaits you... But..."
"But?"
"But never forget that to be together with your soul twin is easy and hard at the same time. You reflect each other as you are the mirrors to each another and there will be many hard lessons you two will have to learn, but he is the only person on this planet who loves you just because you exist, who loves you without reservation if even you rejected him and hurt his feelings. So all depends on you, my dear Lucien! You can still be blind and look for someone who will never complete you like your soul twin and continue believing in your illusions or just go and embrace your love... It's up to you!"
I almost cried listening to that wonderful woman. I unwittingly chuckled closing my eyes.
It was unbelievable... All became so clear like never before. That special woman Miriam was so right...
"But I would like to warn you, my child..." Miriam said me with a serious voice.
"Yes?"
"If you will decide to embrace your love of your life it might be not so easy as you think..."
"OK!" I chuckled. "I'm ready for all!"
"OK..." A woman smiled. "Just don't forget that there are always the action and the counteraction. "
"No matter, lady Miriam! I am ready for everything! Thank you so much!"
"But I would like to warn you, my child..." Miriam said me with a serious voice.
"Yes?"
"If you will decide to embrace your love of your life it might be not so easy as you think..."
"OK!" I chuckled. "I'm ready for all!"
"OK..." A woman smiled. "Just don't forget that there are always the action and the counteraction. "
"No matter, lady Miriam! I am ready for everything! Thank you so much!"
A woman nodded still smiling at me.
"Be blessed, my child! Safe path to you and just listen to your heart!"
"Thank you for everything!" I bowed respectfully to Miriam and went away not feeling the ground under my feet.
I was so happy that I stood and laughed. I laughed from a bottom of my heart. It was the most sincerest laughter in my life.
"Be blessed, my child! Safe path to you and just listen to your heart!"
"Thank you for everything!" I bowed respectfully to Miriam and went away not feeling the ground under my feet.
I was so happy that I stood and laughed. I laughed from a bottom of my heart. It was the most sincerest laughter in my life.