I stood for a while feeling dizzy in happiness. "How could I be so blind?" I thought remembering everything what was associated with Dexter. We were very close almost since that day when we've met. We both had the feeling that we know each other thousand years if not longer. Even Archer wasn't so close to me like Dexter. Anyone wasn't close like he... I was just scared of that closeness, of that fact that looking at Dexter I see myself. But when we were together I always felt happy as I was completed, he completed me and I completed him... It's just... I believed that I and Joshua must be together. I had the feelings for them both, but they were different. And now? Did I have the feelings for Joshua? I cared about him and I knew that I will not stop searching for the truth, but my feelings about him were already different. I cared about Joshua like about my close friend, but not like about my lover. And all what happened... It hurt me, but maybe I needed that? Maybe nothing happens without a reason?
"No, I can't run away from Dexter longer, it's stupid and meaningless..." I thought holding the glass with Romance Festival drink.
"No, I can't run away from Dexter longer, it's stupid and meaningless..." I thought holding the glass with Romance Festival drink.
I was sure like never before that I have go and embrace my soul twin, ask him to forgive me for everything and give me one more chance to prove that I really cherish him and am thankful for his devotion and faith. Here was only I who was selfish. No more confusion, no more chaos, no more fear! I was determined to do everything.
Soon I felt... that Dexter is somewhere near. I could feel his precision in the air. It was hardly describable feeling, but I realized that I feel it already not the first time. I turned around and saw him. He sat at the table and talked to some man. I took my glass and went straight towards that table. "Now or never..." I said myself in the thoughts.
As always Dexter joked and told funny stories. I watched him with a smile on my face and silently listened to his funny stories.
Soon I felt... that Dexter is somewhere near. I could feel his precision in the air. It was hardly describable feeling, but I realized that I feel it already not the first time. I turned around and saw him. He sat at the table and talked to some man. I took my glass and went straight towards that table. "Now or never..." I said myself in the thoughts.
As always Dexter joked and told funny stories. I watched him with a smile on my face and silently listened to his funny stories.
Suddenly I felt a sense of fear in me. "What if he will reject me? What I will do then?" I thought.
"Lucien..." Dexter's voice sounded like in a dream. "Hi, I didn't expect to meet you here... Where is Joshua?" He smiled at me.
I swallowed hard. "Now or never..." I said myself in my thoughts again.
"Dexter... May we talk?"
"Of course!"
We rose to our feet and went a bit away.
"What has happened? Something is wrong with Joshua?" Dexter asked me.
"And when it was good?" I smiled a bit. "No, it's not about Joshua, but yep, I have to tell you something, Dexter..." I nodded.
"OK..."
"I and Joshua... broke up..."
"Oh... Really?" Dexter was surprised.
I nodded silently.
"I'm sorry, mate..."
"No Sorry, Dexter..." I shook my head. "It was my decision. I want to be with you!" I exclaimed and then...
I don't know what has got into my head. I grabbed the petals from the ground and threw them into Dexter.
"Lucien!" Dexter laughed. "What are you doing?!"
"Shit... What idiot I am!" I scolded myself, but it was already too late.
I swallowed hard. "Now or never..." I said myself in my thoughts again.
"Dexter... May we talk?"
"Of course!"
We rose to our feet and went a bit away.
"What has happened? Something is wrong with Joshua?" Dexter asked me.
"And when it was good?" I smiled a bit. "No, it's not about Joshua, but yep, I have to tell you something, Dexter..." I nodded.
"OK..."
"I and Joshua... broke up..."
"Oh... Really?" Dexter was surprised.
I nodded silently.
"I'm sorry, mate..."
"No Sorry, Dexter..." I shook my head. "It was my decision. I want to be with you!" I exclaimed and then...
I don't know what has got into my head. I grabbed the petals from the ground and threw them into Dexter.
"Lucien!" Dexter laughed. "What are you doing?!"
"Shit... What idiot I am!" I scolded myself, but it was already too late.
"Ahem... Isn't it a tradition of the Romance Festival?" I tried to fix the situation.
"It is... But..." Dexter chuckled.
"What but? We love each other, we are soul twins..." I said quickly coming closer. "I know I did many mistakes, but let me to fix them all, Dexter, please..."
Dexter sighed looking at my eyes.
I smiled embracing and puling him in the kiss. I felt his hands on my back, how his mouth opened and his tongue touched my tongue, I wanted to melt in him...
"It is... But..." Dexter chuckled.
"What but? We love each other, we are soul twins..." I said quickly coming closer. "I know I did many mistakes, but let me to fix them all, Dexter, please..."
Dexter sighed looking at my eyes.
I smiled embracing and puling him in the kiss. I felt his hands on my back, how his mouth opened and his tongue touched my tongue, I wanted to melt in him...
But then when I was already somewhere in another Universe Dexter pushed me away.
"Why?" I mumbled. I felt shocked as I really didn't expect it.
"Lucien... We both know that it's only period in your life..."
"What do you mean?!" I exclaimed.
"I mean what I said... It's a period for you and after some time you'll make it up with Joshua. I don't want to be rejected again... Sorry, Lucien..." Dexter's voice sounded gloomy.
"It's not true! Listen to me, please!"
"Why?" I mumbled. I felt shocked as I really didn't expect it.
"Lucien... We both know that it's only period in your life..."
"What do you mean?!" I exclaimed.
"I mean what I said... It's a period for you and after some time you'll make it up with Joshua. I don't want to be rejected again... Sorry, Lucien..." Dexter's voice sounded gloomy.
"It's not true! Listen to me, please!"
"No, Lucien..." Dexter shook his head. "It hurts me, do you understand? I am not made from the iron..." The tears appeared in his eyes.
Dexter quickly covered his face.
I felt like a real cunt.
Dexter quickly covered his face.
I felt like a real cunt.
"Dexter..."
He shook silently his head and went towards the bar.
"Shit! Shit! Shit!" I cursed angrily in my thoughts. "Everything should be not like that!"
I couldn't let my soul twin to leave me like this. No way!
"Dexter! Wait!" I shouted and ran after him.
He didn't turn to me. I saw how he closed the door of WC and followed Dexter there.
"Please, Dexter..." I almost begged him feeling that I will burst in tears myself soon. "Don't reject me... I was silly and blind, but now I can see the truth. Give one more chance, please!"
Dexter looked at me and I looked at him.
He shook silently his head and went towards the bar.
"Shit! Shit! Shit!" I cursed angrily in my thoughts. "Everything should be not like that!"
I couldn't let my soul twin to leave me like this. No way!
"Dexter! Wait!" I shouted and ran after him.
He didn't turn to me. I saw how he closed the door of WC and followed Dexter there.
"Please, Dexter..." I almost begged him feeling that I will burst in tears myself soon. "Don't reject me... I was silly and blind, but now I can see the truth. Give one more chance, please!"
Dexter looked at me and I looked at him.
"I know you love me, Lucien, I always knew it, but how can I believe in you when I see how you rush about not knowing what you really need?" Finally he said me.
"But now I know what I need..."
"Are you sure?"
"Yes!"
"But I'm not assured, Lucien... Sorry..." He smiled sadly and went away.
So I stayed alone. Totally alone... And it was my fault.
"But now I know what I need..."
"Are you sure?"
"Yes!"
"But I'm not assured, Lucien... Sorry..." He smiled sadly and went away.
So I stayed alone. Totally alone... And it was my fault.